When I first joined Al-Anon, I always knew God loved you, but did not know he loved me. If He loved me, why were all these bad things happening to my family and me? I felt like life ought not be so sad and filled with problems.
I knew the drinking had a part to play in this mess and the problems would land in my lap for me to take care of. In fact, I just took them over, no one asked me to. I just felt like I had to, somebody had to, and they never did it soon enough.
God is referenced in our steps, traditions and our literature, etc. It was suggested to me that I find a Higher Power that I could believe in, whatever I wanted to call it. Something outside of myself.
I knew I needed to make peace with the God of my youth. I used the group as my Higher Power for some time as I knew if I tried what worked for them, there had to be something to it.
After a few successes, I felt closer to my Higher Power, of whom I choose to call God. Al-Anon and its members have given me that. I am eternally grateful. That is one of the reasons I just keep coming back.
We meet every Tuesday at 6:30 p.m. in the CAPsell Building, in Conference Room C. Another group meets on Monday at noon at Hope Lutheran Church, Wautoma. See you there.